Life Is Like

I'm brushing back my hair,
I'm staring at my shoes,
This is my worst nightmare,
I've got everything to lose,

I'm standing in a crowd,
I'm panicking inside,
My mind is in a cloud,
I want to run and hide,

I try to say a word,
Nothing will come out,
I feel like a stupid coward,
I want to scream and shout,

I feel like every one there,
Is watching what I do,
Inside my mind I say a prayer,
For all of this to be through,

I walk away all alone,
I almost feel relieved,
I realize that I'm still unknown,
My goal was not achieved,

I don't like the kids at school,
They don't understand me,
They think I'm just a fool,
But inside me they can't see,

I feel like I am disliked,
As I sit out on the border,
This is what my life is like,
With Social Anxiety Disorder.