Faking A Smile

I almost forgot what it was like to smile
Because I havent done a real one in a while
The smile you see im always faking
That heart you see was almost breaking
Every night I use to lay in bed
A think of my past and wish I was dead
I never whated to wake up again
Because of the past and all my pain
When you look at me you see a smile
But is it real or a different style
I smile to you while im dieing inside
Dieing on the inside but happy on the outside
The smile you give is just front, in my heart im crying
in my head im dieing

Then one day I saw this girl drop her bags
I picked them up for her along with her mags
And as I look into her eyes
I smiled and had a warm feeling inside
My fake smile was broken and never to return
Now my heart is waiting for love is what it yarns
I got her number and we started going out
Sometimes I think is it still faking then I look at her and I have no douts
Its been 6 months and I can finally say I feeling loved
And I never can remember the feeling of being unloved
Now because of her my heart isnt breaking
Now because of her I can finally say my smile isnt faking