Can I give you a hug hunni? Your poem describes circumstances that are very similar to my own not too long ago, so let's just say I have been there. A response I would like to leave you is found in my two poems, first one called Depression and then a poem called Because I love you. Best of luck hun. If you want to talk to someone I am all ears and the Forums are great places to talk too.
Genau! (German for awesome)
You did a great job here aswell, I know that feeling all to well to, never stopping no matter how hard you try, and as if it can all keep going without you, it's sad good job :)