I'm going down

I'm going back down
Where my feelings can hide
They'll hide deep within me
Deep down inside
These feelings I bare
I care not to share
So I'm going down
Down where the sun
Refuses to shine
Where all of my thoughts
Are all out of line
This is the me
That I choose not to show
You love her
This I know
I cannot betray the things my eyes see
I cannot defy all I may be
The path that I take
That's my choice to make
So I'm going down
I'm not the girl you think I am
I'm not as happy as I seem
As I walk down the hall
It makes me sad
To see her in your arms
Again you don't even care
The things that I write
These feelings inside me
Just cannot be right if you love her
Then why do I love you
I don't even get it
It just cannot be real
You said you would love me forever