I cant believe it we are over he really said it were done no more, how will I go on? What will I do? I cant wake up everyday and NOT call him, NOT talk to him...please, just let it all be a dream I will wake up soon...I just have to give it time.
The old smile, there he is, together, were together again.'Hey, what movie do you wanna watch babe?' I really dont care it doesnt matter to me, as long as youre there with me.' Thank god, hes with me...what's that ringing? My purse...why is my phone beeping? Oh...Ill just hit snooze...'Lets just go with pearl harbor. 'we've seen it a million times' 'I know, brings back memories'
Just us just sitting there just like we used to a kiss, right on my forehead, its going to be ok we will make it through it all through anything. Here comes his favorite part, his laugh, god I missed his laugh.
God stop beeping I hear you! 10 more min. on snooze.
'I have to go in ten' 'why already?' 'you know why' there he goes grabbing my hand, gently stroking it, its ok he says. I can see it in his face, in his eyes, he knows it wont be ok. Romantic scene...this is the scene when we had our first kiss. 'Do you remember this?' do I ever, how do I forget something like that? he gives me that look, he leans down and at that very moment at that same instant I hear my phone from within my purse beeping.
I grab my phone and hobble down the stairs, still drousy because half my night was spent sobbing in my pillow, and get in the shower to get ready to face yet another what promises to be awful day without you.
pry doesn't make as much sense to you as it does to me but...it was just random thoughts i had one day about my first love....
