Beautiful and sad. It starts with a tear and ends in a memory - not sure if that was intentional, but it works like the opening and closing of a book. Very well written. I'd love to hear some of your songs :)
Seems you have been in turmoil some time and that can lead to bad things. We will love even of we aren't loved just so we can say we aren't alone but the strength comes when that person leaves or we find the courage to leave them. I have been there and neither is easy though the memories can sometimes be good.