Those last hateful words

Why can't i forgot him
Why can't i push him away
Do i really still love him?
No,there couldn't be a way

After all the hurt he caused
After all the tears i cried
After all the times he hurt me
After all the ways he lied

But somewhere deep in soul
My feelings are surely there
For some reason i still love him
For some strange reason i still care

Seems like years ago we parted
But it hasn't been that long
Only a short six months ago
I can still here our song

I thought we'd live our lives together
But then it came to an end
My whole world just shattered
My heart just wouldn't mend

I cried all the tears i ever had
Seems just over a simple guy
But he wasn't just a random
I couldn't figure out why

But then one cloudy April day
I figured out my mistake
I had lost my soul mate
The biggest stuff up i could make

It all clicked in an instant
What i had done
I had thrown my love away
I had just turned around and run

OK,Maybe i was really mad
Because surely he had hurt me
But we didn't have to throw it away
This wasn't the way it should be

But sadly i cant turn back time
I can't change my past
I just wish those hateful words to him
Hadn't been my last

I wish i could've said goodbye
I wish i could've set things right
Instead of an argument
Instead of a horrible fight

But i walked away from it all
And he just walked away
And we've never laid eyes on each other
Since that hateful day