You Were Not There

Moonlight shinned in my window bare
How I wish that you were there
Teardrops roll down my face
I knew that I fell from grace

My body shook with sobbing cries
Like it does when somebody dies
Confusion filled my mind with doubt
As I tried to figure it all out

You were not there to hold my hand
You were not there to help me understand
You were not there to dry my crimson tears
You were not there to calm my fears

In my chair I sat, joint hanging from my lips
Remembering the caress of your finger tips
Every single time I felt your touch
I realized that you loved me that much

But all I could see was the needle under your skin
The pain in your eyes, reflected by sin
The dead expression in unseeing eyes
The peaceful way that your soul flys

You were not there to hold my hand
You were not there to help me understand
You were not there to dry my crimson tears
You were not there to calm my fears

Weak form all the tears that I shed
And from all the blood that I bled
I found myself standing in a daze
Trying to find my way though the purple haze

I prayed to God to just take me
Why did you forsake me
And leave me alone to cry
It's unfair that you had to die

You were not there to hold my hand
You were not there to help me understand
You were not there to dry my crimson tears
You were not there to calm my fears