I need help

I have a problem,
a really big problem
which has caused me to loose the one that i love.

you see my problem is this ...
I'm depressed and suicidal

Ive hurt the ones who love me
and pushed them all away,
now i need there help.

i need help to be me,
to show my boii ill do anything for him
because i love him so much

this suicidal thing is going to far

so now I'm going to change
no more getting depressed
and no more feeling suicidal

no more cutting
or even thinking about it
I'm going to write my feelings down instead

I'm going to do everything i can for him ...
cause hes the only person i love