I won't be there

When i finally break down
and put myself to rest
i know i don't want to be underground
for me i know what's best

when i finally say goodbye
and bid you all a due
i don't want you to cry
i don't want to hurt you

When you wake up one morning
to find me without breath
don't fear for there is glory
in the embrace of my sweet death

when you see me cutting
don't worry i'll cut too deep
trust that i know what i'm doing
for now i shall still breath

When you see me overwhelmed
and taken up by sadness
please just don't try to help
with your cheery gladness

when at last i leave this earth
give me a grand ball
just as you celebrate my birth
you must also celebrate my eternal fall!