One and Only

Sometimes you look at me and I know you see,
The tears and the pain I never show inside me.
I swear its a miracle if you dont hear,
The screaming of my heart is so loud I fear.
I know you feel it too
The pounding, feels like its going to rip out of my chest.
Maybe its for the best
Theres so much we would have to overcome,
But I was willing to take that risk or be cumbersome.

Now I know in my heart you want me too.
But we can never be, with you
It will always be just me.
Whatever it may be;
You refuse to find what you want, b/c it might just be me.

If that scares the shit out of you
Think what it does to me.
I sacrificed everything;
Now Im stuck with nothing.

Wanna know how much it hurts knowing what you want,
And no matter what you do, you cant have it?
Expressing my feelings didnt do shit.
So I tried scheming a bit
Nothing there either.
I am steady throwing pebbles to knock down a steel door.
As I scream and knock you answer no more.

I wonder if I gave you the moon and the stars.
Would you say, hey, I wanted Mars?
If I gave you the sun, would it be too bright?
But it would keep you warm and safe with its light.
If I gave you my car, would you say it was too slow?
Insult my pride and make me feel so low.

Funny though,
No matter what you do to me
I love you so.
And you will always be
My one and only.