This line got me: "I've never been so deep inside a shadow that's pulling me down"...

wow, that is heavy. That's like the depression we never want or can even explain sometimes.

Powerful poem, especially about the growing up too fast and maybe not having a chance to let things be in calmness. There were only highs and lows.

That ending gives me chills... keep holding on.

This is deep. Depression is awful and it is hard to explain. We certainly have no control over it. I call it the "emotional rollercoaster". Ap and down, high and low.
It takes enormous strength and you are strong.