Broken Smile

If you look upon my face,
not a frown will you trace.
I fake a smile so no one can tell I'm sad.
Hell, maybe I'm just mad.
I feel lost without him.
Everything's become so dim.
He says he's moved on and happy.
Gah that crap's just so sappy.
You know everyone writes about their lost love and how they wish their other half didn't leave,
Well when it comes down to my story, it's kinda hard to believe.
I don't know if you can call it being scared,
but I got rid of the only man who actually cared.
In my mind I see his face so much.
Each night I dream of his touch.
Why did I have to hurt a man so dear to my heart?
Hell we were together for two years, I thought we'd never part.
Every wonderful memory, every perfect smile, every sweet kiss,
Why did we have end up like this?
I wish I could change how things are.
I wish I could erase all his painful scars.
I wish I could go back.
I wish I could grab onto that one piece of my heart I lack.
For what eveyone doesn't understand,
It's right in the palm of his hands.
He's had it all along.
I didn't realize it till I heard our song.
But you see,
I've brought him to the point where he doesn't even talk to me.
But then again, if someone hurt me so bad,
I would be sad, yes, but more than anything mad.
I've apologized so many times, you see.
So now he's only screaming, "Let me be free!"
What was it that made me push him away?
Was it because I was just seeing if he would stay?
Hell I don't know what to do.
I guess in the meantime I'll scream, "I'll wait for you!"