Love and hate

Sometimes I thought I loved you,
Others I was sure I hated you.
But after four years I realize that
Sometimes
The line between love and hate blurs
And sometimes
It's both at once
But
Once that happens
There's no going back
It's confusing,
And it hurts a whole lot.
Because
The only thing to do is let it go
Even though,
You were my life
Despite the fact that
No matter what
You will always be my obsession

* i know its not that good, its just my rough draft for what i kind of want it to end up being. any suggestions are welcome.