Otherworldly...

If I could explain to you
This enthralled ecstasy
This tiny taste of insanity
This need to make you bleed
I think you would shake
I think you would stutter
I think you should break.
You want to comprehend
Incoherent thoughts?
You want to feel
What is NOT
Fine
Take a step closer
Let me whisper in you ear
"You feel my finger trail up your arm?
This is not real
This is not real.
You feel this beat I Place within your heart
That is not real, that is
Not
Real."
You know all those promises I made
Day after day after
Today?
They are not real
Just guilty little words
An attempt to make you "heal".
I do not love you
FOR I DO NOT FEEL
You see, ironically
These are my thoughts,
Even though I begged to have you
And that's what I had got.
I want to let you feel this anger
Feel this hate
Feel all my tormented thoughtless rage.
But you can’t possibly feel anything
Not the beat of MY heart
Not the breath from my lungs
You cannot feel either,
For...
You have none.
You are DEAD.
Doomed,
Destroyed.
And If I could have you here
To be consumed,
I would.
If I could have your heart next to mine,
You lips, your hands, your touch
I swear I would fly to sky
And never again the ground would be mine
To touch.
If I could shake you from ground, and press a promise to your heart
I would dig for you with bleeding hands
Through cold soil
If only that might be enough...
I suffer this insanity,
Your absence torments me so
And if to save me from calamity
I wish you'd come back so I could then go
For now I cannot die
I must live for us both.
For now I cannot die
Injustice I scream
For now I cannot live
Alone
Only me.
I am colder than your corpse
Colder than your heart
I am desperate to die
But to join the otherworldly;
I cannot part!
I am desperate to clasp your hand
Desperate to kiss you lips
Desperate to promise you
Of love that I sorely miss.
But I don not love you
I cannot, I swear
I do not love you...
For our love alone
Is too much for one alone to bear...