Map To Your Heart

I still think of you
in the dark passages of my mind
i constantly untangle my feelings
and interpret what they define

I am lost and abandoned
and i can't see or hear
love is blind to the eye
and deaf to the ear

the warmth of your smile
the tone of your complexion
giving off false signs
and misleading directions

the map is in pieces
and so is my heart
i do not know where i am
or where i should start

i am going backwards
and retracing my steps
recalling memories and
realizing my depths

the trail is rocky and
my steps were hard to follow
my decision was pure risk
the consequence difficult to swallow

i attempt to put the map's
pieces back together
and my heart? won't cooperate-
-it can't stay bandaged forever

a compass can't help me
the stars are no use
they will probably deceive me
and overall confuse

the seasons are changing
time is no longer my friend
i hope you're still there waiting
because I am not here to pretend