Until then my heart will cry out

Tonight these words pour from my soul
Like tears I cannot cry

I walk alone though surrounded by many
Hidden desperation builds under my eyes

No one truly understands me
No one possibly could

I've lost sight of all logic in life
I never do as I should

Desolate devotion to one person
Is the only thing left that brings joy

And of course God has removed him from me
For I know my focus shouldn't be a boy

Unfortunately that doesn't change a thing
My heart still rests in his hands

And because of such great distance
I'm SO far from being with him

We both have so much growing to do
Before we can truly connect and become one

So until then my heart cries out
In sorrow from constant scraping until I am done