Forcing a smile, is not what I do.....
And I know I can try,
But you always see through
And nothing I make is up to your grade,
I know I can try,
But my efforts just fade
Holding back tears, has become my skill....
Never used to cry out loud,
But this pain just kills,
Cos there's more to be said when words aren't used.....
When I show you my scars of past abuse....
Faking a laugh, just isn't my style
And I know I can try,
But you see my denial,
Cos nothing I do is ever good enough,
I find myself faking,
Because I'm in love
And I know I can try, but I know that I'll fail,
Just waiting for you to let me prevail,
Faking and forcing, doesn't do it for me
I know I can try, but you're not trying for me
