Ramblings

I should've never done it.
I should've known nothing good could come from it.
We've just created more stress and confusion for ourselves and I'm afraid now.
I'm afraid of what will happen as well as what wont.
I'm afraid this mistake will make our conversations awkward. I'm afraid we wont have conversations at all.
Not that it really matters.

I've realized we never really had a special friendship.
You act the same way you around me as you do with everyone else. I'm no one special to you...
I had myself convinced.

Sure I'll still miss our conversations at first
Soon I'll miss them only when I'm bored
Then before I know it I wont miss them at all.
I cant believe I was so dumb.

I cant believe I thought I could take her place so fast.
How dumb to think my kisses could erase hers
How dumb to think a hug from me could make it better.
I cant believe i was so dumb to think of myself as more that a friend for you. How dumb I was to kiss you.
How blind I was to not see that all you really want from me is a friend.
Nothing more.