Again

Again

Here I go again in this
Pre-love, is it love, could it be love phase
Questions running through my mind
Emotions tangling up my heart
Making it difficult to understand where each string leads

Why oh why do I do this to myself?

Should I let down my guard and grant her entrance beyond the gates of my hidden place
Knowing that in the end
Her gift like the Trojan horse will destroy the village of my heart
Leaving it broken, scattered into pieces that will take years to mend

Oh Why oh Why do I do this to myself?

Allowing the possibilities of the what ifs
To overcome my fears and common sense
I am stronger now than I once was
But yet not strong enough to repel this over-rated Ideal of love
And so ..
Here I go Again.