Confessions of a broken heart

Oh no here i am again
lying in bed awake
having all these thoughts of him
while crying and starting to shake

grabbing his stuffed teddy bear
that he gave to me
gripping it so tight tonight
please just leave me be

this heart never felt so soar
as tonight it starts to ache
so i lay in bed and tune my tears
so to sound of my heart break

i cant believe I'm doing this
crying over him again
a birthday disaster left my in pieces
so now i pick up my pen

i start to write a long drawn out letter
that goes on about my life
and how everything always goes wrong
and i happen to pick up a knife

these tears are still falling
staining the paper i ruin with ink
these flash backs in my mind
make me stop and start to think

why did everything happen this way
losing almost everything i had
and now losing you
has made this turn into something bad

knowing that i had you
for six months of bullshit lies
and everything we went through
i don't even want another guy

the only guy i think of
is you, your always on my mind
i don't know what to say to you
because i cant be sweet or kind

i was to nice to you i think
isn't that why you left
because I'm a stupid f.u.c.k.i.n.g. c.u.n.t
and I'm f.u.c.k.i.n.g worthless.

I'm sorry i was your "everything"
but obviously that wasn't enough
no matter what ill always love you.
after i break through the skin that is tough

i hope you come to notice
i was the best thing you ever had
and even though my heart is broken
i know you will want me back

so ill keep waiting to see if you care
kind like you said you did
hun Ive grown into something more
than just a little kid

take this broken heart back
and mend it so i can see
and i can love you the
way you deserve to be