In Pieces I Rest

I've gone through so much terrible pain
I thought so later happiness I could gain
This pain is not like yours, or any other
This is a pain that makes my heart smother

I know things could be worse, but only on different levels
Different aspects of life come with different devils
Not many could have it worse than me in this department
Just kill me now and lock me up in my wooden compartment

Anything to make this horrible pain end
All I wanted was a companion AND a friend
But I guess that just wasn't meant to be
For everyone else maybe, but not for me

I've gone the lowest you can go in the area of love
I'm controlled from hell, no longer the heavens above
Every time I thought 'This is the worst it can get'
They found new ways to make another one fit

I don't want it to get any worse, so I'm giving up now
I tried my damnedest, and going out with a bow
Nothing was good enough, no matter how hard I tried
I've now accepted my defeat, my heart has now died

God decided to make a joke out of me
Only because he could clearly see
On this Earth I was an accident guest
Now I lay here ... and in pieces I rest