The Things You'll Never Hear Me Say

If I could only talk to you
Then everything will be alright
If only you were here to console me
During my emotional fight
I just need you to calm me down

I've thought about this often
I think I love you
I don't know how I love you
I just know that I do
If only I could tell you how I really feel

These feelings probably aren't mutual
I doubt they ever will, but that's ok;
I still love you
Nothing you could say could stop me
I know what I feel is real

It feels like I lost you,
But I never really had you
I don't know how or when these feelings came
Or how they got so strong
I haven't quite decided if it's good or bad

I know you won't be mine
I know you can't be mine
We know each other inside and out
My feelings I don't doubt
I love you

I don't get it
I don't get us
I keep our friendship a secret because they wouldn't understand
I know I wouldn't
I barely do now

If you knew this was written for you I bet you'd be confused
Bet you didn't know I feel this way for you.