Ode to lack of color

I know it's crazy, I've never even met you,
But your words, Jessie they are what pulled me through,
Jessie I'm going to make it through this, and the one I'll have to thank is you.
You're incredible, you're amazing, I hope you know that too.
The night we spoke, what I was going to do was..let go, let go of life, of everything,
But you made me believe that I'm actually worth something,
i'm sorry i've hurt you, you've been so kind, can't believe this is how i repay you,
these scars they brought me relief, but but cant help me more than you,
jessie,i cant promise i'll stop,
but i'll try with everything in me to stop,
i cant stand knowing i've let you down, so please
please reach out, and grab my outstretched hand,
as i mutter i'm sorry
i'm so sorry

*I can never thank you enough, never, you hold a place in my heart, as the one who ever really listened to me.