I Don't Miss You

Today I got your letter, you had a lot to say
It's been almost two years since we last saw one another
Yet I see you everyday....
I am raising your two kids all by myself

You ask me why I left you
Why I didn't stay
I told you for years I could not live this way

Your always gone it seems...
Leaving me to be the mom and the dad
It makes me upset to hear the kids ask
"When is Daddy coming home?"
And to see their big eyes so sad

If only you could make the right choices
Maybe you could hear...
Not just the memory of our voices

But I've let go and moved on
Your baby boy has since started school
And your little girl, well she's so big now
You wouldn't believe it to see her
When you left she was barley walking
Now she's potty trained and talking

I've played the part and made decions that are so hard
For seven years I was devoted to you
Loved you and stood by you
I had the bail money when nobody else did
I worked two full time jobs to support our kids

But things never changed they only got worse
And the last time really was the last time
I turned and walked away...
Freeing myself from your curse

I found somebody new
He takes the place of you
When I'm cold....
He holds me
When I'm scared
He calms me
When I need him
He loves me

He gave me the power
To do the things I always wanted to do
But never had the time...
Chasin after you

See...he never leaves my side
He gives me so much pride
I wake up to see where I am
And remember all that I went through
Just to get here...
I shed a single tear
But I can honestly say...I don't miss you

Dedicated to: Calvin the father of my children...you put me thru hell...but I thank you because you made me stronger...and for Dante....nobody can come between us...you are my one true love and nobody can ever fill your shoes and do what you have done for me...I love you!!!!