The Secret!

The secret :
In the dark depths of shadows I cry
Its hard for me to talk it feels like suffocation from lies beneath
I'm under oath hidden behind secretsy
But I cant take no more I have to tell u how I love you
I cant stand how your with her it kills me every day when I see your together
I dream that one day I would have a chance with you
But ive realized that's just a fantasy not reality
I some times wonder what it would be like but only for a minute
Its come to my attention for my attraction for you
But do you really care?
I understand that I am an outcast in your eyes
Just because im different in so many ways but I will never change for some stupied reason
Back to the shadows I lay in darkness unable to control my defining emotions
I think about how happy you are
And how miserable I am
Wisps curl winds blow (silence) occurs
I listen to my thought's
While I lay there I think about how many fun times we've had before you met her
But that's different now we barely talk anymore
I seem so troubled but my feelings for you are uncontrollable
I wish you could see really how much I love you
But for now remember this I will always be there for you
As I hide back under secrets I come to my sense that I will have no chance
No chance to ever know what could have been
But im ok with that as long is that your still my friend
My secret I hide once more back to my old routine once before
I hide this from you I mask my cries with shadowing lies
You don't have to worry I wont ruin anything
Ill keep my feelings covered up so you wont see
My secret no one knows
I try so hard to not let it show
So live your life And I live mine
Even though a little of me dies each time you pass by
That's my secret