I've never been good at distinguishing between fantasy and reality; this time is no different...
Yesterday you were in my arms, today you're filling his.
I've conducted myself in a manner that would never intentionally hurt you...
I guess as a consequence, hell is what you put me through.
My heart has been yours from the beginning and I'm sorry that's all I've had to offer...
But if you look inside the depths of my soul you'll see forever is what I'm after.
Conjuring up some fairy tale and molding it into actuality would be nice...
That's what I've been doing all along, I guess now I'm paying the price.
I've searched far and near, looking for another you to calm my biggest fears...
Only to discover, you alone keep my mind wondering back here.
It's not the tears that worry me or even my everlasting thoughts of you at night...
It's simply the fact that you cause the pain, yet you make it all right.
My head and heart jump back and forth between together and apart...
So now I'm fighting a battle I never intended to start.
If the truth be known, I'll always love you and never leave your side...
It's just that playing this game of heartbreak isn't what I had in mind.
*If you're confused about me being a girl and the poem being about a girl.. I'm a lesbian and my ex is "straight"*
