Well, megan walker is my best friend. Sometimes things aren't very fair. But you have to know that i'll always be here for you. At the minute i feel a little lost, and scared because-it's like I'm alone. But i still have you :-) when i'm with him, yes he makes me happy. But then he upsets me like this. And i find it so hard not to cry, because i hate thinking that he prefers someone else to me. Or that i'm not good enough for him, But sometimes.. I'll be sitting at home literally feeling desperate, for someone to hold me or to tell me how much they really care. And then really i just need you there-my best friend. And i just need, right there to sit with you and cry. Cry until i can't cry anymore. He doesn't care if he hurts me. It doesn't affect him at all, and i hate that he lied to me about how much he 'loved me' but somewhere deep down inside him, just like EVERYSINGLE other time, he'll come back and say..'Oh, no i really do love you' and i can't take it anymore- i haven't got the strength to hold him and know that he's only half mine and the rest of his heart lies somewhere else, with someone else. But you have been amazing.
I know you've been going through a really hard time, and i haven't been the best friend i should have been. But iam ALWAYS going to be here. ALWAYS and you have to be able to talk to me. Because when you do feel alone or like things just aren't going right(Which yes, for me they feel like ALOT of the time) i will be the one to hug you, and say-yes i know things are fair, and my shoulders right here and its okay to cry about it. I love you Megan x so so much:) my heart is always going to be with you xxxxxxxxxxx
