It gets hard to hold my head up when those happy memories of you weigh me down you've been on my mind more than usual lately and it's taking a toll on me slowly but surely.
I just sit and wonder sometimes where you would be right now at this moment and what would you do with your life.
I know you wouldn't want me to be like this, nor would you want things to be the way they are. But not being able to run to you when things go wrong or when I want to hide from everything.
It gets hard on me knowing I cant wake up to your sunshine smile anymore knowing I won't get anymore kisses that completely take my breath away. Realizing that all my tears that fall from this day on won't be caught instead they will simply fall and be forgotten.
Unlike you my love you will always be remembered forever and for always.
I know I asked a lot from you while you were here but please don't refuse this simple request: don't ever forget me, look down on me from paradise and guide me to the light.
Don't let me drown in my own tears or live in fear but let me live free once again show me how to smile when I'm broken the same way you did, but don't let me hide that person inside of me so deep that I almost forget they're there, don't let me be ashamed to cry when memories of you come racing back to me every now and then.
Please don't let me forget how your gentle touch feels and how your warn eyes calmed all the fears inside of me. And if I shall stumble during this long lonely road, don't give up on me, don't lose faith help me back up.
It may take a while but I'll finally make it to where you are. I know one sweet day these miles will be worth it, but I still haven't figured out where is the good in goodbye. I just want to know why, why did you leave me here to face this cruel and unruly world alone? Why my love why did you leave me empty handed but with a head full of memories that just play in my head over and over again?
