Why can't you see

I try to make you see...
how much this is...
really hurting me...

not to have...
you in my life...
as well as by my side...

i was the dumb one...
that went back to the...
one i so severely hated...

just to loose...
the one that...
i so truly loved...

now as i sit here...
thinking about...
when we were together...

they are so vivid...
almost like...
flash backs...

as i regret...
the hurtful sin...
i have done to you...