I cant describe the pain that i feel. I thought that i had filled in the void, the hole that was inside of me. In stead o filling it in i only managed to make it deeper and deeper. And it HURTS!!!! An indescribable feeling, one that you cannot even begin to fathom. you cry and you cry inside and you fight with your inner being. You fight to control yourself and to be stable but, no matter how hard that you try it just seems to get the best of me every time. WILL SOMEONE HEAR MY CRY FOR LOVE!!!!!!!. Is that too much to ask for. I WANT TO BE LOVED!!!! TRULY LOVED!!! Someone who will hold me, stroke my hair,caress my face, rub my back, without me having to say that this is how i feel. this is what i want. Not to just show these feelings once or twice 3,4,5,6,7,8,9 or even 1000 times. NO. But do it indefinitely. Always showing this affection to me and never changing the way that they are. Whether we are by ourselves or whether we are in public with friends. ALWAYS continuing to show LOVE. like i am truly wanted. Like i am truly needed.
But this is only a dream. Dreams dont come true. This love that we crave want and NEED!!! This does not exist.
This is only a figment of our imagination. And when we let our minds be free, when we start to wise the hell up and realize that love maybe is just not what we think that it is. When we begin to understand. TRULY UNDERSTAND that we will simply never be happy. ONLY then will we truly start to love our life take control of our life and truly feel alive. These re my thoughts. This is what i feel. This is what i live. This is DeAngelo's cry... This is MY CRY and TEARS!!! FOR LOVE.
