I _ _ _ _ you

I miss you
i miss your all black clothes
i miss your mischievous smile
i miss your obsession with black
i miss your wanting of wanting life

i want to see you
i want to see your performances
i want to see your interaction, or lack of
i want to see your wins in life
i want to see your life

i love you
i love you with how you try so hard
i love you and how you hold on your old habits
i love you and your love of music
i love you and your voice