I Should Hate You But I Love You

There are no words in the dictionary that explain how I feel
There is no way to find out if what I feel is real
Well I guess the there are two words but they are rather strong
Feeling them both is rather wrong
I do not know if I love you
And I wonder if you do
I am under the impression
That this is just a stupid obsession
Wait I do not mean that
What I said was not true
Those are the things I said while I sat
On my bed thinking of you
The truth is you are always on my mind
And I can never seem to find
A place where your memory is not there
But I bet you do not even care
I bet you do not care about the tears I cry
And mostly because you do not even try
I bet you do not realize how much pain you cause
I bet you do not know that when you go that will be my greatest loss
I know you don not think of me as much as I think of you
Even If you say you do
I thought this would be fun
Now I ask when it will be done
What did I do and where did I go wrong
Was the time we spent apart too long
I cannot stand to be apart
Each second breaks my heart
I love you
But I should hate you

BUT i DONt