Mistake

As Iâ??m dragging the rusty blade across my pale skin
You come to mindâ?¦& I realize how happy I CAN be
Your one of the few things that can put a smile on my face
& as the blood trickles down my wrist I remember
That I DID serve a purposeâ?¦& that was to be with you
But it dawned on meâ?¦How can someone that isnâ??t happy
With themselves make anyone else happy
& then it didnâ??t matter I didnâ??t need logic or science
Just you & I realize it was all a huge
MISTAKE

As Iâ??m dragging the rusty blade across my pale skin
My phone vibrates against my thighâ?¦ its you rescuing me
The 1st word out of your mouth are â??I love youâ?? & then
I remember its not worth it Thereâ??s a REASON
& I try to continueâ?¦But believe it or not, you have power
Itâ??s only when your not around that I succumb to the
Calls of my deadly viceâ?¦ but then you make me smile
& thatâ??s when I realize it was all a huge
MISTAKE

We had a fightâ?¦.
As Iâ??m dragging the rusty blade across my pale skin
I lose controlâ?¦I cut my chest, my hands, my legs
This time your not there to be my heroâ?¦to be my savior
To make me happy againâ?¦ IT feels better than ever,
A punishment for having made you SO angryâ?¦
Something strange happens
The vibrations againâ?¦Its youâ?¦.but its too lateâ?¦
The damage is D O N E
&& Now that youâ??re back in my graspâ?¦
Is when I realize that it was all a huge
MISTAKE

Now when we lay 2gether you donâ??t see my scars
Theyâ??ve gotten betterâ?¦But I just thought u should know
It was YOU that saved me almost every timeâ?¦
& Iâ??ve done some wrong things in my life
But if I ever lost you it wouldnâ??t take long
To realize that I mustâ??ve made a huge
MISTAKE