Just bashing on Myself

I suck,
i know, I get it.
I'm crazy,
I understand.
I messed up
but don't you think
I've beat myself enough
for it.
I'm not good enough,
ever, I believe it.
I'll never be as pretty.
But I'd like to think
I'm not all bad.
But that's a lie.
I'm stupid,
untrustworthy.
Just a witch
that made too many
mistakes.
I've changed into this
chaotic mess
of a human being.
Something you can't stand.
I lie.
I lied.
I hate it.
But please
Be the best
friend again that
I want you to be and
stop punishing me please?
Cuz sweetheart I'm doing it myself
even worse than you'll ever do.
Cuz I won't forgive myself
and you slowly are hon
trust me I'm going
insane cuz
I
can't
stand
myself.
I
hate
every
bit
no
matter
what.
I will break myself for you,
I will fall and be in pieces.
But I want you to be the
one to pick me up and
fix my broken self
and I want to be
forgiven.
I'll never stop loving you,
thank you my best Friend.