Im learing to understand
That you will never be a man
Im learing to understand
Someone will always let go of my hand
Im starting to understand
I have no way to stand
Im starting to understand
You want me gone
Im starting to understand
That life never should have began
I tried once, I tried twice
I tried 19 times
To let go of life
Now today
Now tonight
I will take my life
It'll be a fair fight
I will say goodnight
And take out my razor
I will say goodbye, and love you forever
So here i say, here I put down
I say my words, oh dont frown
And on the paper you will read,
I dont know if i should say sorry
I dont feel its all my fault
I dont know whether to say i love you
When its you that made me fall
But to the ones i really love, im gone forever now
I wont make the stupid mistakes
That everyone found
I love you zach
Your so sweet, and brave
You made me live longer
You said not to be afraid
And Chrissy, I love you
You really are great
I found myself stopping
Because i thought i would oneday figure you out
I though maybe i could cure your depression, make you happy and be ok
Im sorry that i couldnt do that, and its because i left today
An to Ari, im sorry for making you cry
Im sorry for living in your way
Bugging the yams
And im sorry i didnt try
To everyone else
I love you for you
Like katie, and Jenn, shauna, and amanda too
Oh look amanda, im coming to you
Im killing myself tonight
This is what depression drove me to
Just two nights ago
You said you couldnt take it
I said to be strong
But you just wouldnt make it
I love you and im sorry for the pain i caused
But living in a heII that you just cant seem to pause
Is more then i can take
And im for you to be happy
Is what im trying to make
So dont be mad because i left
Be mad because you killed my soul
You know who im talking to
No time to act a fool
So tonight I take my life that is
And this is my message to you
Life is all a fake
And tonight my life i take
