Emotionally Wrong, Literally Right

I continue to ponder.
I continue to stare.
I can't help it so I take a second guess.
My mind speaks of tragedy.
My heart speaks of love.
All my eyes invision is the pain he could cause.
Possible to say no
Or impossible to let go.
I'm here nor there.
I seemingly roam nowhere.
I need no reassurance
For I now know the truth.
Still I feel clueless.
Still I feel lost.
Can you really go on
Yet only to let things be?
How can I feel so complete,
And still feel so distant.