To all my lovers

Love is no joke and I can tell you so. Once you think you have found Mr. Right he turns out not to be what you thought he would be. Yes I have been in love before and it hurts like a tramp! I'm still in love with this one special person he knows who he is. I mean it is so hard to just let go of the person you love so much to let some other female have him. Yea I have been heartbroken before and it isn't a joke. When you love someone you are willing to do what ever it takes to make them happy. I know some of ya'll have been there before. Why it is when a female is doing her all for her man it still isn't enough. I gave my all to him and it still isn't enough for him what is it? He seems to want the females that aren't doing anything for him. I try to be his friend but it is getting hard to be one to him. All the drama with the females and we isn't together wow! He knows that I love him so that might be the problem. If he knows I still care then he knows I'm not going anywhere. I love him so that it's making me get sick. Now that when you know you are love sick for that person. He means so much to me that what ever happens to him I'll always be here for me no matter what. People say to me to just give him a rest and move on. But how do you move on if the love is still there? How do you let your heart just fell you now? I would really like to know why love has to be this way. All I want is for one day him and me to be happily back together. Please somebody tell me what did I do wrong? I'm so hurt right now I feel like killing a tramp. What do you do when the person you love so much act like you is not around? I would give my life up for him that's making sick to my stomach. All I ever wanted was to the best girlfriend a dude can ever ask for. I can't take this bullshit no more my heart feels like it is ready to just give up on me. I loved him and still love him with all my heart. Nothing in this world can change how I feel about him. You know what I don't care anymore if you know who I'm talking about. The person I'm so in love with is Justin Matthew Biddle. Yes I know you might be thinking why he but I just do. I love everything about him. Yeah you can say I might be stuck on stupid but hey I don't care. He is all I ever dream of. All the shit we been through just doesn't explain anything to me anymore. I'm so hurt and confused right now I don't know how to feel or think. I want to be his everything. All I ever did was made sure he had a smile on his face everyday. I did a lot of shit for him that could have got me in big trouble but I did it for him. I want to be his down as chick.