Today when I woke up I had the pain of you in my head, and emptiness in my heart, I'm cold and alone once more, and burning up with the hate of myself for being so ignorant and not trusting you, all I did was push you away. Now I feel all these things inside, I want to make it all go away. So today I put a gun to my head and closed my eyes and took in a deep breath, and let it out. Imagining how things would be if I was to die right now with you stuck in my mind and a emptiness in my heart, I seen my family coming together to fall apart not understanding why, my friends morning me asking why didn't I notice. Then I saw you, crying, braking down, falling apart, alone with a broken and confused heart. I took in another breath and opened my eyes with a tear, I couldn't do it, I can't. It would hurt my family and friends, but most of all it would hurt you and tare you up causing you to much pain to bare. Besides I made you a promise that I would never hurt you or leave you. I love you more than you know even if it means I have to live with out you today and every day. I just need to make it trough today everyday.
