When i lost you.

In this eternal moment of complete silence...I am consumed by my utter sadness..
I reflect on all those things long gone...back to when I used to be your only one...
Now, I am alone and just broken inside...please believe me...I tried...I tried..

I did all I could to make things right...but it all ended one starless night..
When the wind blew a different way...and I said I just could not stay..
I know that I promised you forever...but I guess times change...and we just can't be together.

I acted without thinking and I did it so fast...little did I know, my sense of triumph won't last.
It was replaced instead with regret and fear...And for every scar, I shed a tear..
Amidst this darkness surrounding me...it is your long-lost face that I can see..

I still feel your touch and your loving stare...but it all now ends in one freaking nightmare
My dreams are haunted forever by the way you looked at me...that day when I said goodbye, I am so sorry.
I saw your tears and I heard your cry...I heard you say "please!...just one last try"..
But that last try I never did give...I just walked away and told you "you'd live"

I was wounded so bad when you stood up and you begged me to stop.
But then you shouted "I have loved you so very much!...You gave my life a meaning"...I kept on walking and when I looked back, I realized I had just lost my everything..
My life is now just empty and pointless..without you, going on is useless..
But yet go on I still do...hoping one day, I'll be back with you..

And now I spend my last remaining days...watching as the movie of my past memories continually plays..
In my mind and in my heart...and when it ends, it plays back from the start..
Back to the way we used to be...carefree and so very happy..

And as I slowly close my eyes to end another day...I could only wonder what could have happened, if all I did was stay.
To just remain with you and love you...until my life was through.
The answer to that I will never know, because now my days are done...because everything I've lived for, are now lost forever...just gone..

With one simple, stupid mistake, I've lost the one I've loved so true..Believe me,
I lost it all...when I turned and walked away from you.