HEARTBROKEN.......NOT ANYMORE!!!!

Here I am...sitting in my room thinking about all the time
I spent writing your name in my notebook,
putting mz. everytime when I put your last name,
Now I think 2 myself how can I do that be that in2 a boy
who tell the truth isnt cute @ all, my friends kept telling
me that I was stupid or dumb 4 liking you, I see what they are
talking about now....even now that I realize it I dont call myself dumb
I just say I thought I was in love....or whatever ....the songs are right
1st crushes are hard 2 get over especially when you liked that person
4 a long time. When everybody found out I was speechless.....soon after
that I answered their question by saying yes....the worst mistake of my life
I spent 2 much time listening 2 sad and depressing songs......crying my eyes out
because u said I wasnt your type or whatever......now that I see that see your wit
Honestly I dont want 2 be your type.....my friends helped me get over u......
making me listen 2 happy upbeat songs......it helped a lot....people would see me smile
see me in the hallway and think everything is fine but they dont know.....wait u dont know...that im crying on the inside......ive been thru so much this past year.....got in2
some arguments.....even though I dont regret them...i was stupid 4 getting in2 them
It used 2 be when u pasted me I couldnt breath, now its like I dont care about that nigga
anymore.....I know im not the most prettiest girl, the most smartest, the most hood, I got a cute lil body I like it.....sorry I wasnt built like u wanted me 2 be.....actually im glad I wasnt....my past quotes were You'll never be mine, I already know that.
But is it nice to shove the hurtful fact all over my face... and I wish I was (Invisible) to everyone, BUT you.....funny how stupid those quotes seem now....im on 2 quotes like
this He broke you're heart, but babi, you gotta move on I love that 1.....and a matter of fact..... I did......look I wanna find a nigga that respects me, loves me for me, basically all the things your not......1 day u r gonna regret saying I wasnt your type but by that time
I probably have found some1 100x better......when I look back @ all the memories I had this school year....some bad some good......but my best memory is the day I stopped crying and finally said I DESERVE BETTER.......I realize when girls say they r in love.....they usually arent....they just have a crush that they cant stop thinking about....and when im older im gonna tell my kids....dont waste your time on 1 person....also find some1 that likes u 4 u.......and if the person say your not their type tell them thats okay im somebodys type......

WRITTEN 07/06/08
BY:ALEX