Miss you

My mind is the crulest place
can't you understand that much
i hear sirens late at night
and my fingers twitch toward the phone

i don't hear from you for days
and my mind imagines all the worst
try to convince myself your busy
not to be needy

But i need you here
just to let me know you're all right
because i have no way of knowing
this is not what i'm used to

i can't just call your name
and have you by my side
i have to wait for you to come to me
and depend on the fact you want to come at all

i can feel the nervousness tearing at me
this will not happen again
i can feel the past haunting me
it's time to let go

i hold onto you
try not to cling
because you're the nicest
you're the sweetest

No one else compares
maybe that's what scares me
because you could leave me
I am nothing special

I've mentioned such before
but you disagree
Your words assure me otherwise
but i need to hear them