I don't know how it happened really, it just happened too fast that i couldn't grasp the concept.
was that all i meant to you?
after four long years, just like that, you can hold another girl? kiss her? make new memories with her as if we never existed.
that love, i never wanted. that love i never believed in.
couldn't you possibly waited a little longer? you said you would wait a life time for me, but it took you three weeks. loll it makes me laugh., but not of happiness, not of silliness but of pain. how foolish i was to believe i was in love. i got to admit that the feeling of thinking your in love with someone was pretty great. I've never felt anything stronger than what we had and i dint think i ever will. but now that i realize it wasn't real, what should i think? why does this pain last so long? i don't want to wake up in the morning because i know baby, i know reality will kick in. that you are with her.
every time i close my eyes, images of you two together tear me apart. every time i try to think of you, the thought kills me inside. because happy thoughts together will always be memories, history. thats all i have left of you now. the pain is unbearable. i don't know why though, i really thought i could move on. i was convinced. i was so happy. but when i realized no guy will be able to treat me the way you have, it tore my world apart. i feel so lonely, i don't want to kiss any other guy. i don't want him to hold me. i just want you to. only you, just you and it took me too long to realize this, but honestly, i thought you wouldn't have given up on me so quickly, you wouldn't have accepted her so quickly, like i was just some girl. the pain you try to bestow on me has caused me so much heartache. i wish i could tell you to make it go away, but you don't care about me anymore, I'm not your little baby anymore, its her. its her. just her. i guess i never meant much to you then , only 3 weeks and now hes . with her./ happy with her/ and I've only become a vague memory. to me , he was my first love, to him, i don't even know anymore. am i really that bad? i tried so hard to make him happy, every little thing. now its over, all that time with him, all those memories with him. moments, moments to remember.
