You better make it count, cause you cant get it back

I honestly believed in you, stupid girl..
i shouldve known better then that,
but then little things you did,
like hold my hands, to keep me warm,
and look into my eyes, and just smile,
made everything somehow worth it.
the way you held onto me was the only way to make me feel safe.
stupid girl, why you let him do that to you?
, tear you apart- and rip up your heart as if it was a useless piece of paper.
i dont tell anyone, that your on my mind constantly
cause, if you found out- i dont know what you'd say..
they all thing im strong,
and moving on,
but my best friend is the only one that can tell im still holding on to my past,
but she doesnt know why,
she asks me,
but i can never seem to reply,
she would never get it,
you could be a total a** but,
the little conversations we have,
and when you interwine your feet with mine
it doesnt even matter.
but what hurts the most
is that your never going to remember
the little things you did for me, that ill never be able to foregt.