Too Many Times Like This (2)

An apology made a million times is worth nothing if you don't know what you are apologizing for. If you don't know what you are saying, if you don't know what you are doing, you'd best stop, drop and just roll dead on the floor."

A tale of a forgotten's downs and lows.
An unfortunate~pathetic outcome that some would have guessed.
Regardless of that fact, this is how the story goes...

I used to turn on you for no reason at all--
--and now you've turned your back on me.
We had our share of hateful words,
but with whatever our lips had said, (anger)
our hearts actually disagreed. (opposite of anger!)

Time then flirted its way through--
--and I was given chances to rectify.
But I lost it all, because I was still too hard-headed.
I was staring at you and I blankly said, "Good-bye."

Even if I wrote a million words, I don't think she will ever see--
--the things that i had felt and done,
how hard it had been to breathe for me.

I know you hate me, I don't mind; most times I hate myself too.
Bad decisions, I know; I wish you were here--
--so I can make my million of apologies that were long overdue.

But it's never going to happen, never going to be; I have lost.
I'm broken and shattered,
because away from your heart, it is me that you have completely tossed.

I guess what's best to do now is to just learn from my million mistakes.
Breathe easy and keep it together.
Save it all for the next girl that will make my heart ache.

My story stops but with her it's a thing of the past, long forgotten; buried in snow.
But even if you've given it your final thought,
you are still the prettiest and most beautiful girl I got to know.