Thoughts that cycle

Alone on this hazy night
Thoughts scrambled
Pull yourself together

My playlist led to her
Unveiling thoughts that remains
Pulls me in, they're never gone

Lyrics flowing through my veins
Attempt a way to my heart
Adrenaline kicks pervades

Memories playing movie-like
Times she loved and cared
Enough to chase away my darkest hour

Cannot forget the wonders
At the hardest of the present times
Her words may have saved

Rushes of ecstasy
Turn into disgust
Despising thoughts of her

Bitterness of loving and leaving
Saving and healing
Capturing than freeing

The cycle of everytime:
Sadness, Ecstasy, Disgust, Bitterness
An emotion she'll never get is this...

The emotion of love