To my love

This Ive said so many
times i love with all
my heart.This will
last till the end of
time.I'm not proud of
what i did.I know it
hurt you like a speeding
bullet.and now all i feel
is like a pile of dirt.Your
my love and now your
different.Now I'm ashamed
and torn into pieces.
I deserve what i get.
I just want your pain
to go away.i wish the
old you would have stayed.
I know the hurtful things you
scream at me is just a mask
of all my misdeeds i wish
i new what it would do but
clearly i wasn't thinking of you.
The cold words that seem to
flow from your mouth tear me
apart but i guess thats what
happened when i ripped out
your heart.I guess my pain
is very deserved it just seems
as if when i talk your
very disturbed.I hate thinking
that now I'm a annoying creature
that buzzes around day in day
out.I hate that i seem to
bug you and make you mad.I don't
feel like I'm wanted around
but then again who would want
a broken girl who couldn't heal.
I feel like a pest in your way
i don't think you want me to
stay.i know love hurts but it
seems to hurt worse everyday.I
know you can do better maybe i
should let you go but your my
one true love this i know.I
hope you can see what
your words do to me.I know
i deserve it but i love you
i didn't mean to break
your heart.I want you to stay but
if some reason you stray away.
just know i love you till my
dyeing day.The way you make
me feel when you hold feels so right
how can it be wrong when it
feels so right.I hope the love you
have for me is true.i know that
until you say go I'm here for you.this i
know. I know you don't trust or
believe me but i know
one thing is I'm not deceiving.
i really don't like when you accuse
me it makes want to die.I
love you with my heart i know
we can make it but please don't
stop trying but I'm not sure if you c
an take it.Please know these words are true.
the reason I'm here is only because
of you .I love you
so very much please know that I'm sorry
thisssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
muccchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
& more.I hope we stay together because
isn't love supposed to last forever?