Fallen Player

I wonder why I like you so
And wish you were always here
You bring out parts of me
I never thought were there.

You're always on my mind
Morning, noon and night
I can't begin to explain
If what I feel is right.

You are so wrong for me
For reasons, more than one
But still I find it hard
To stop calling you 'Hun'

I don't know how to describe
If what we have is real
The times we spend together
It's just for fun or to deal

It's nothing other than that
Yet sometimes wish was more
I've fallen for you, damn!
Thinking about it makes me hit the floor.

How could this have happened?
Me wanting to be with you
All I really wanted
Was nothing serious or true?

You're not my type at all
I just wanted you to play
Now you've gotten in my head
And need you now to stay.

I don't know how I got this way
Or what it is you do
But you have me totally spellbound
And I'm just drawn back to you,

It bothers me now to think,
Of myself as being so weak
I like to be the one in hide
Not the one going seek.

Well so much for me,
And, my so-called game
It seems I've lost it now
And can't live up to my name

It's kind of funny isn't it?
Really, don't you think?
That the guy I tried to play
I've fallen for in a wink.

This poem was written a LOOONG Time ago,
finally decided to post it.