Haunting my dreams, my thoughts and my fears,
Constantly struggling to hold back my tears.
So undeserving, so hurtful so mindless,
Daydreaming as if this were my life's test...
Why have you become my addiction I continue to battle?
I want you so bad it is almost unbearable to handle.
Lost in my world memories of you continue,
Lost in my focus unable to release no matter what I do.
Were you so special or meant just for me?
Addicted to those thoughts i fail to move on or to see.
The possiblity...
You do not know me, avoidance your guard,
Compelled to grieve your lost forever,
My battle of addiction I find so hard.
Stolen moments of mystery, confusion and lust,
Accepting for what they were and no more,
An absolute must....
Simple time spent with a man who affected me so,
One ignorant man who refuses to see me or know.
I could have been the greatest gift in his life,
Instead, his rejection sits in my heart like a knife.
Why have you become my addiction I continue to battle?
I want you so bad it is almost unbearable to handle.
Stop me I pray from pondering in my head,
Please help me free my soul from this addiction instead.
I recognize my self worth, my dignity my treasure of love,
Allow me to release this pain to the heavens above.
This man will lose his chance with me,
Let him find his own revelation to see.
Basking in love and affection truly to adore,
Uncovering all the layers of which defines him to explore.
Diving into his heart and to swim around in his soul,
If only, he was open with me enough to lose control.
