Unanswered

So I sit here and wonder will my happiness return?? Almost two years and its

always off and on.. The lies that tore my heart to pieces.. The betrayal that

stomped on my soul.. The sneaking around that left me waiting for him to show

up.. The excuses that I believed every time.. Its not at all any more confusion,

its time.. Can someone really change the ways they learned to live?? Can someone

let go of what habits tend to always fall back into place?? Is it possible that

sometimes people just make mistakes?? Why is it so hard to understand.. After all

it been a year and I'm still picking up the pieces.. How is it so easy for a guy

to do such wrong, but so hard for the women to understand?? Is it the blindness

from the difference of dreams and reality?? Every now and than I find myself

trying to figure out where I went wrong?? Everything was passing me as fast as

the wind blew.. I cried my eyes out for months behind closed doors, not knowing

if ill ever be able to trust again.. I try telling myself that its in the past

and things have changed, but still to this day I hear more and more of what I

should known back than.. The explanation wasn't enough.. I feel like I'm still

lost in the mix of unanswered questions.. But as myself I don't know what else

needs to be answered, and that's the tricky part of all.. I'm I just fooling my

own self with the Fraze "LOVE"?? Or does it always get bad before good?? Is this

the way its suppose to be?? They say you don't know what you got until its gone,

Is that fact true or fiction.. Life can be so unwilling, but whats the end

point?? Are our life's planned out or are we creating them as we go along?? What

are the temptations of wrong from right?? From hurting and healing?? Does it just

happen by the moment or is it continuously going on in a secret life?? What's the

point of trust after its broken?? Is it wrong or right to regain what was left

behind?? So many times lies were told and time was wasted?? How could it be??

That.......That my loved one once dearly hurt me?? Was it out of games or

confusion?? The one I call my soul mate has a struggle through what we call true

love.. I know he loves me... But how many other people has he ever loved.. I cant

go by what I hear, but sometimes the truth hurts those who care.. I wish I could

of been there much longer before the rest were already.. But god was taking his

time and there was a reason it happened when it did.. Or wasn't there?? The

thought of him telling all the waste he loved them makes me wonder.. Is it true

when he tells me he loves me?? How could it not be, but like any one else its the

same that makes them wonder.. The words "I Love You" can kill someone.. So why do

people use it to there advantage?? Some just use the word with no meaning or

truth, but you'll never know whether or not it has or doesn't?? Now do you?? Is

it worth the time to fight if you've been hurt by the one your fighting for?? Is

there a possibility that it will never happen again?? If your heart knows what it

wants than shouldn't you go for it?? Or is it faith that has to bring it back

together?? How does our heart handle all the wrong that people have done?? Does

it make us stronger or more of a fool to believe?? How does love really fit in??

No one will ever know unless your the one trying your hardest to find the answers

to the questions that are always left unsaid??